// June 21st, 2009 // Comments Off // Leadership / Productivity, raimonnemar
If you know me then you know that my positive energy and passion are not only things I’m known for but things I’ve never really had to try to hard to make happen. It’s something that I feel was almost given to my by my ‘rents when i was young. See my dad was one of those people who was on the positive attitude, your attitude = your altitude, you believe it you can achieve it train. But instead of telling me these things when i was a kid he would tell me things like……”you can’t use words with a negative connotation” words like can’t, won’t, didn’t, were just as bad as saying fuck or shit in my house for as long as I can remember. With that kind of attitude how can you lose? And honestly for most of my life I didn’t lose.
From the time I was a toddler till maybe a year or two ago I would say I pretty much always got my way. It’s not that I never failed anything. I’ve had tons of businesses that most people don’t know about. T-shirt companies, 2 magazines BEFORE LEGENDmag. An ad firm, a deejay company, and tons of other businesses that helped me to get my business chops. I learned over time that failing helps you to succeed.
Thing is through all these things my attitude got me through. At the time I never saw failure in not having those businesses anymore. I also would’ve never used the world failure. I might’ve said “I just needed to move on”, never having admitted that I failed at all. So when it came time to hit the bottom hard, well I was really lost.
For the last year or so I feel I was fairly lost. No real direction and worst of all having a positive outlook wasn’t really an option. I can honestly say that all the cliche’s are true. Misery loves company, you find out who your friends are, it’s all about how you deal with the hard things in life, and you have to persevere. When i was younger and wrote songs I would also hear other artists talk about how they had pain and if you have no pain it’s hard to be a true musician and I would also think, man I definitely don’t have any real pain.
Well now I do have some pain and over the past year and a half I’ve learned that you can’t live pain (if you want to stay sane) you have to live with the pain or even better yet find a way unload it. Pain can turn into grudges and other negative feelings that you just carry around with you until….you guessed it. You get rid of them. They don’t just go away, you have actually learn to forgive or take measures to purge yourself of the pain knowing that you have to keep the lessons learned from that experience.
all that said….I want to thank the people around me for always believing in myself, even when I’m wasn’t always sure I did. No worries, it won’t be happening again any time soon. 
